The Waiting Game: How It’s Preventing You From Seeing God’s Gifts
Dark forces enjoy it and grow when we create pain for ourselves.
One way we create pain for ourselves is by ‘waiting’. Not the normal waiting. But the psychological waiting we create with our thoughts. We somehow think that, in some sort of backwards-logic, that being insistent on getting what we’re looking to get as soon as possible, will somehow help us.
In the psychological sense, we’re beggars waiting for life to give us food, when the fridge is full.
When we believe we need something to arrive as soon as possible, life bends to this belief. We start thinking about why it’s so important for us to have it right now. All these rationalisations subtly justify our anxiety — which grows and grows—until it becomes annoying.
Our trance-based imaginations of what we’re looking for to arrive cocoon us into a sense of angst. We become hypnotised by our delusions.
We injure our inner world to the detriment of God’s desire for us. We become myopic. Blind to what’s on the periphery. Unaware of what else needs to be done and seen. Hyper-focused on our point of attention, we don’t see what’s behind us and to our side.
Our timing and actions then become disharmonious. Because we are ill-at-ease inside. We lose our way and create negative ripples.
To change, we must let go of our OCD thoughts about needing to get x by x time. We ought to just work on whatever needs to be done, without an attachment to the outcome.
We let go of waiting for the thing we want to arrive. Because if we keep waiting, it’ll possess us in a psychopathic delirium.
We already accept the loss. It may never arrive. We accept the emptiness of not having what we want yet and move our attention towards other things.
Ending the habit of ‘mental waiting’ is extremely difficult to do at first. It’s a skill in itself. After all, we’ve built many mental habits throughout our lifetimes.
A key one to recognize is being impatient.
Impatience is implicitly celebrated in Western culture. Never give up! Keep going! While there is some wisdom in pursuing what you want with dedication, being impatient when you’re waiting for something to arrive is a form of ignorance.
We inherited this ignorance from our ancestors and the people around us.
Maybe there’s a different way.
I write this for myself because I’ve been extremely impatient today. I was expecting something to arrive in the mail.
I’ve propped up this package in my mind. I’ve created this idea in my mind that it is ‘very important’.
What’s more important is making the most of the day that’s been given to me.
Today is Day 63 of 2024. It’s the first day of the rest of my life.
There’s plenty to work on and focus on besides the important package I’m waiting for.
I bought someone a gift. I walked outside and saw light.
Despite my impatience, I’m learning a different way of living. My inner peace is more precious than my desired object.
I have other things to do and focus on. Things that are here with me now.
I wrote an article today.
That’s something.
The important package can wait.
